May

May now, life goes on !!! This year is definitely a pivotal point in my life, my project is on schedule which makes me really happy, it can be hard at times, stay in focus is really difficult especially when you have to stay in tune all the way through. I sometimes question myself whether this effort is worthwhile, but I guess you need to give it a try first, luckily all the things that I fought for or a goal tried reach had all become reality. So maybe this doubt is pointless. All I should do is just to fight harder, perhaps there is something waiting for me again. Keep it up with my project while dad is away. Finish all the modeling by end of June, start on my Thesis while she goes to America. Use my time efficiently and wisely!

Wishes....

Do I have any wishes .... hm yea quite a few ...... Become the richest man .. haha
That's my ultimate goal. Now stop being naive and start narrowing down things that I can achieve. Well, make sure my portfolio is at a level that can get me a Revit Architect job or maybe even a technician. 2. Make sure my visualisation is good enough to earn me a contract renderer role . set up the great web site founded by David titled BIMATELIER.COM what a beautiful name. Absolutely stunning!!!


Well, furhter more, wish everyone well. She is very down today, I feel like I am a bit too much or sort of annoying. She deserves to have sometime for herself, TRUE
!

Funny how I used to think people probably needs help when they feel down or not well, but some people just want peace ... PEACE .... TRANQUILITY .....

Ah... this girl has got a personality ...

David ya....

Just thought of something, her mum and Tanaka san has left me some memories. Great wisdom from them, her mum has got a really good personality. She seems very easy going and well presented, I am sure she has been through a lot in her life, I can see she is a very tough individual deep inside. I like analysing people at times lol .. Maybe I can gain some insights or learn something from them. I was surprised how frank she was when she shared some thoughts. She mentioned the importance of possessing money. In my heart I totally agree with her. Unlike some of the hypocrite elders, she was very genuine I like this shit. I am quite straight sometimes as well.


Tanaka san is a interesting elder as well, I have a lot of respect for this old Japanese guy, indeed he is very Japanese. For one point I thought he behaves like a Chinese guy, likes to show off his possession. Once again, I enjoy people being real.
I can see his fear towards the rise of China, he is right, things he had shown me is no way near the things I v seen in China. I still remember uncle Yang's mansion in the middle of the lake and how me and dad traveled with the group to Guangzhou for that conference. Its right, sometimes you cant even picture China like that LOL. Dad is going to USA with this 30 people group in July again, funny how every member in this club is worth at least 10 mil (except Dad). I dont blame Dad not able to succeed, fucking at least he tried. I felt quite awkward when I am with them, but my ambition comes from this fucking awkwardness.

Talk about myself, I am a rebel in my heart, I never fear or backed down what so ever. Born in Harbin, grew up with my idol who is my lovely grandpa. More than half of my ideology comes from this guy. I was educated by him- a true rebellion, yea a Communist.

Hey, by now I come to a conclusion that it is just a believe in life. At least he had a soul, I tried to be like him at times, I always tried to find some sort of value in life!! always been searching and will not stop as well...
People may say why do you have so much irrelevant thoughts, that's why I am very different. Hey, yea I need money, there is no doubt about that, but in my heart I despise money sometimes, there are times I dont really give a shit about money. Sarcastically all the greatest leaders are not rich people at all, but they dont lack in intelligence and power, I think it is quite romantic sometimes, character such as Che, gave up his middle class life and searching for way to free people. Although I would not want to be like him, I would learn from his spirit. Vladimir Putin's wage is probably equivalent to a farmer in the US. So ?? fuck it, he is real character, I like him!

Off topic, indeed there is no topic, this is a fucking diary. What was I saying ? ...
Yea, Money can miss judge your decision at times, it can restrict you as well. That s no the point.

I have so many sides ................................

Hm... Dun wana write anymore ....

4月

了解他人，了解自己，别心太急了。突然间不太想睡了。

。。。 把自己保护好咯，活的才能长啊！哈哈哈

游

从前那些匆匆过往的欢乐岁月
象是梦的季节日和夜
把我带向遥远久别的一切
时光断裂
换得这无奈的距离与爱的熄灭
能换回什么
留住幻梦留下美丽
回忆开动倒计列车
陪你度过寂寞
陪你从山路再次经过
就让阴暗被阳光照射并吞没
化解所有的所有
年少的不快乐
想象着
让人砰砰心跳头晕脑发热
带着喜悦几度兴奋
相约上路在清晨

怎么了

- 其实没什么大问题， 不过那是为什么呢？ 那是为什么呢？ 嗯 。。。。





我有的时候还真的挺讨人厌的。。。 嗯





我为什么总会让人难过呢~~。。。。。。。。 应该总结一下。





在一起还是需要磨合呀！！！！！！！





磨合~！





忍耐~！





磨合 ~！！！！！！！





发张照片 呵呵 她说我们不合适。。。。

磨合吧 ！！

别放弃！！！

暮春秋色

多开阔 幻生凋落
曙分 云舞
冬穿梭晚来经过
手挥 捕捉
起风了 骤雨下天
暮春 秋色
一清池 桂花妩媚
万丘壑 锦缎绫罗
或多 已消落
光阴归来 天空把
染尘埃 一并敛埋

了解自己很难

人真的是一种极其复杂的动物，我们有七情六欲，不同的性格，对事物不同的态度合理解。 那我对我自己还了解多少呢。。

我希望能克服自己的缺点！！！ 更加积极的面对人生！！！

HD 1108

HERE IS A GIFT FROM GOD, IM PROUD TO BE HER MAN!

My parents

- My parents !! good looking aye!! I am very proud of them, they are proud of me as well. lalalalala

On Track

Havnt update for a long time coz I'v been busy!!

Here just some highlights of my lovely life in the past 2 monthes.





- My birthday dinner at Bondi.






- Followed by a super duper surprise present from my beautiful friends.






- Especially these two, omg cant believe its been almost a decade with these guys!!!!!!!










- Ofcoz these two!!



- AND Ofcoz these two!!!

Basically they all very important to me and others as well!!!!!

Keep going

The beautiful thing about life is change, bad things might turn out good, sad things may result in joy. As long as you keep trying, there are always bumps on the way but once we overcome it, its going to be a long smooth sweet journey. Love life and have some faith biatch!

23 32

What a funny shot><
hahahaha

Hm... This song called 23 32 by a chinese singer has totally moved me, I'm thrilled by her powerful voice. I have to say that the lyrics isnt bad as well.

谢谢 写写

WHEN I WAS 2 YRS OLD

HERE IS A LOVELY PHOTO MUM, HOPE DAD WOULD COME BACK SOON..!

之所以一直这样没完没了的写是因为心里极其的空嘘， 我怕可别真的把自己憋出什么病来。 没 有伴侣的日子真的很痛苦， 不过希望我自己还是保持好的心态，钢铁就是这么炼成的，呵呵。。 我是勇敢的david.!!! 坚强的david, 无可战胜的david,我是最棒的！！ 相信自己 啊 ！！ 不能低头， 不能放弃。

我就不信了我找不到个像样儿的女朋友~！！！！ 哈哈 不过星期六有错过了个好机会， that girl must be a model. totally fell in love with her, lol basically everything, smile, eyes, fuk everything....

hmm.. anyways...

下次吧， 也不知道会有几个下一次！！

Monday

艳阳天。。。

Im trying to finish my resume for this industry related job, hm.... need ot think hard to impress the employer.

Sick of Life

- Im fuking sick of life nw, god when can I go to the next world?~! reincarnation please, wana become a single cellular organism with no brains hahaha

My ep1

wtf I just pressed a buton and everything suddently disappeared.

Anyways just wanted to upload some of my EP1 photos, amazing camera with some many features, love the art filters. I mean love it absolutely love it.!!!

btw, I'v learnt a new word from Steve which he says everyday - Hideous!

Hope my english would improve susbstantially ahahahahha

My blog

Ok, now I finally have a blog, a place where I can express my feelings privately. I have no friends to comment nor to stalk. This place is truely owned by myself. Recently I discovered that I'm not in a good mood, a stage of my life where I dont feel as motivated and happy as I used to be. Well, reasons could be very simple, there are problems in my life, it could be relationship problems even though I'v been single for almost a year now, but there are still things I always chew over with, things that meant to be dead and burried long time ago. Maybe you can say Im a narow minded person, or not a open person.













But I really want to change and start a new life, so I have been trying in diferent ways, lol just got my hair done few days ago. Lett me upload a pict first coz I really lyk my self hahaa.
















- Taken by my Iphone.

More and more worries and stress everyday, I would probably become a depressed motherfuker after a while, but yea I doubt that would ever happen.

My personality, just feel like to analysis myself , sometimes I m very over analised with things, not only about myself but the things around me. but I guess this is process of growing up , my manager at Oz has been a geat teacher in my life, he has told me many things in life, one of the most important aspect of life I learnt from him is the that knowledge can taught at school, but wisdom cant. Its upto an individual's awareness of their surroundings to gain this valuable experience called wisdom. Well, I think Im still trying to learn and gain my wisdom. I admit that Im a very naive kind of guy, a person who lives in his own world and not really aware of the people and situations around myself. Dave there are so many things to learn.

Concentration, getting focused is one of my biggest problem, when I look back, there are so many mistakes that I have made because of not being focused. I really need to improve on that, Im still young, I still have a chance to change and become a better person.