人生如此，浮生如斯，缘生缘死，谁知，谁知？

need a change )

下一个可定最好） ））
一个人也不错嘛。快乐就好啦

coming soon

NEW LOOK ON THE WAY )))) COMING ON FRI ))))))

July

Cool pic, miss snow now !!
need to see grandma, she s 85 now ))
july now )) so quick

wish I can go there !!!! ))

New )

My all time hero , National hero !! Hes back !

i should be back on the court as well

eVERY THING NEW ))))

ALL NEW)

擦肩而过

DAVID. If you are not feeling well just write dairy. Keeep writing until you get better. Say whatever you wana say .
I wana buy these things **********************************************************

Just remeber all the good things about her, good memories.)) Keep me happy
Well for me it was obvious she is my type, from the first time I saw her I knew she is what I wanted for a long time. She was ofcourse good looking, I liked how she is quiet and shy sometimes, she has a emotionless cool look sometimes which I like as well.She has a short temper and somtimes a bit mean and dont make sense. lol But I liked it because its kinda cute. Maybe it is opposite attraction i guess we are difernrent and theres no doubt about that, most of our fights were quite cute when I now look at it, maybe its just me, but for her its probably a painful build up of bad emotions until she finally couldnt handle it anymore. I dont regret being with her at all, I believe for me I had far more joy than pain, but for her its the opposite. Hey David look at it this way if you cant bring her any happiness ofcourse having you just a burden.

The answer is simple David, you liked who she is, why do you expect her to be someone else? You dont even like someone who talks non stop then why you expect her to explain and talk so much like that ? She just wanted to be alone and not being disturbed, what is wrong with that ? You dont feel like to have some time by yourself at times ? ask yourself. Why do you listen to those calm music and tried to stay focused alone ?? You dont do that ????? Ask yourself. When you expect someone to understand you first, why dont you try to understand others first David?

I really paniced, I was scared to loose. You lost your confidence David, its like a snow ball, one wrong step made you fell extremely hard! Lesson learnt David, when you unsure about what to do just stay quiet, dont talk.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Build youself back up David ! Re develope your thoughts, gaining more wisdom David.

Monday June

Having a positive attitude is very important for me, it makes me to view the world in a much brighter picture, and usually your inside can be fueled with endless amount of energy. Been reading some texts about being great. I realised that most of the greatest people in the world have similar traits that is being positive and open minded. When things are not going your way, your faith would allow you to find some solution. Had a conversation with mum the other night, I suddenly felt that she has been an important mentor in my life amongst others, its hard to become a real man, in chinese we say a 大男人. Being a real man you really need to have a big heart meaning that the ability to forgive and not being narrow minded. Whenever there is a problem, being a man you need to look at yourself first. 懂得释怀，理解。有一个宽阔的胸膛才能做大事！ if you keep on blaming others for their faults you will never become successful. Having a "heart that is as wide as the open sea", otherwise you will just be a regular. I dont want to be a regular, I need to be a real strong man !

'A man who views the world the same at fifty as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life.' By Ali. You need to constantly developing yourself so you are improving all the time David.

Positive, look forward !! open your mind !! never blame the world!!

把自己的心结打开，勇敢面对一切！

I totally agree with mum, a great personality can be the key to success, reshaping your personality and master it, it sounds very fundamental but in order to succeed you cant lack in that. learn from others and try to apply on yourself David, age 22 is just the start of my life, My future carrer and relationship will succeed if you stick with these fundamental rules of life. If you have great aspirations and postive attitude, you will get there David. Manage yourself first !! Learn to accept and be friendly!

17

No more 17



)))))) I v known them for 10 yrs . still doing well )))

REST IN PEACE

- 5 YEAR anniversary since grandad past away.

ALWAYS LOVE AND MISS YOU GRANDPA!!

been shooting hoops these days, got my game back gradually. )))))))))))))

neeed to work more on my legs !!!!!!!!

时常

或许她根本就没爱过你，DAVID 你别再傻了。 性格不合适是可以慢慢互相接受的，但是抛弃自己的爱可能就再也回不来了。 算了吧， 她早就把你删除了。 I thought we could of gone really far, naively how I thought I can accumulate all my 'good morning' greetings till the end of day, but it only lasted about 180 days.((

Cant help but...

Fast forward David...


Improve your self.

Mind really determines where you heading, if you think you want to marry someone one day, you might end up being there and end up solving all the problems along the way, if you think you clash with someone you dont want to try coz you dont want to fail, chances are you will end up leaving someone just tomorrow. Relationship needs two people, learn to accept other people's personality David, she left because of you didnt accept her first. Dont point fingers at others David, you really cant change anyone but yourself. You are no better than one else and no one is better than you !

Dont give up on yourself First David !

Go back and focus on your project!!

Wednesday

Sunday

Took a day off to study for my exam, having a cup of tea and started day dreaming again. hahaha Decided to write another dairy for my sunday, been writing alot these days, maybe its because I need to calm my feelings. Ofcourse everyone who has got dumped will have a tough period of pain, well for me its the first time, but put it this way who can guarantee that life would be smooth all the way through. But a coward is someone who cant manage to get back, I still dont beleive I am a coward.

You cant change anyone but yourself David, I think its true,why cant I take a step back and identify my own problems and make some self improvement. Cant help myself so I did some reseach on google.lol so fucking gay hahaha
You have been possessive at times during the relationship and not giving enough space to the other, the result is she would lose the confidence on you, you are no longer the confident man like before. Thus lost of attraction. I think this saying is true though. I think its true I have shown too much insecurity. I think the main point is I appeared to be mentally weak, that is not being able to handle her mood at times. Fuck I think this is true, the article says most women lose interests because the man is too weak to handle them mentally. Should of read that shit before dating a girl. This is the key area I need to work on, its very true no wonder whenever my mum complains I gave her this annoyed face which makes her even more pissed off. I think i did the same to her as well. It shows you are mentally weak.... that is good theory~~
Other issues such as demanding and controlling.

I can see I have ticked all the boxes... lol omg

So for girl number whatever, becareful with these key issues. Totally wasnt aware ~~~
I found I ve been using the quote 'Get a life and find your own way!' as a motivation tool, lol so effective. She probably thought I would love her forever and work everything for this love as a heat of the moment thing, I was actually being serious. Bitter isnt it David?????
Well, you need every spices to make up a life! Fix yourself up = one step closer to a strong man = stronger man ==========================================================)

缘分

缘分这东西说来就来，说走就走。 人生的变化实在是太快了，有时根本都接不住。
每天写写东西能让自己的心情好些。
Old school song I like, cant believe I still listen to this in 2011....

You are the only one for me - Brian Mcknight

You say you’ve seen too many things,
That turn out to be too good to be true.
Against your better judgment, opened up your heart,
’til you found the joke was on you.
Looking out on the rest of our lives,
If we’re gonna be together or apart
About the only way I know how to come,
Is right straight from my heart.
I want you now,
I’ll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I’ve been around,
But now I’ve found
That you’re the only one for me.
Say you’ll never fall again
You won’t subject yourself to such pain
If you give me half a chance I will
Never leave you standing out in the rain
But if you think that I could look you in your face and lie right
Through my teeth
Then turn around and walk away
Cross my heart, girl I care for you and when I look into your eyes i
Must say...
I need you now
I’ll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I’ve been around
But now I’ve found
That you’re the only one for me
I need you so
I can’t let go
Gonna be all that I can be
I want you still
I always will
Cause you’re the only one for me
La la lla la la la la
La la
La la la la la la
La la lla la la la la
La la
La la la la la la
I want you now
I’ll show you how
I can be the man you need me to be
I’ve been around
But now I’ve found
That you’re the only one for me
I need you so
I can’t let go
Gonna be all that I can be
I want you still
I always will
Cause you’re the only one for me

wake up

Wake up David!!!

Its over, emotions up and down is not good for you !

Stay strong !

You know how you failed ? It is because you cant control your emotions!!!

No one likes that !!!

Get a life ! Find your way David !

Are you gana admit you have been defeated ?!!

BE A FUCKING MAN CAN U ?!

Change yourself David

Monday

- Just be yourself David, tried to act a bit caring but made yourself look like a soft pussy in the last relationship, behaved like a caring-less ass hole in the one before. LoL Get it right next time David !!

Just fucking be yourself lol.

I need a spanish girl hmmm

New day new hair cut !!

I am coming soon !!

Had a new hair cut, good morning world ! I discovered that Chant music is really good to calm your inside. WOOO SAHHH ...... Control your temper David !!

Failure

Failure makes you succeed David !!!!

Know how you failed and move on David !!!!

Save money !!!!!

The importance of compounding, be financial smart David, eventhough I dont have much money !!!!!!!!!!!

I need more self descipline!!!

Go out and Run !!!!!

Stay focused with what you are doing !!!

Read more !!!!

Lol.... Just read a about the importance of Compound effect ! Great book now how can I change my life ~~~ Maybe I should start changing step by step !

NO MORE SPENDING !!!! BUT I WANT A NEW SHIRT (

I like Tony givens, he is a good motivator !!

It is all about your mind David !!!!! ALL IN YOUR MIND !!

BE POSITIVE ! LOOK FORWARD, I AM ACTUALLY AMAZED HOW I can get back on track this quick lol .. spoke to some good friends and family members ... ))) Me like this weather as well ....

Tonight's goal, finish all the interior of the building, run to the beach and back, no fucking rest DAVID !!! PUSH YOURSELF YOU LAZY BASTARD !!!!

LOOK YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR AND SAY FUCK YOU DAVID !!! SAY IT TO YOURSELF YOU DONT KNOW YOURSELF !!! HAHAHA

8/06/11 LALAALALALALALAALALALALALAALALALALALALAALALALALALALALALALALAALAL

DONT EAT TOO MUCH ON FRIDAY BITCH LOL I AM WARNING YOU RIGHT NOW DAVID !!!!

1 week

Lol

Its been a week now. Feeling much better, finally had a sunny day after a week of rain. How funny, like a movie scene, bad mood and bad moments complemented by the shitty weather. I still dont think she is that kind of person, what can I do...

Maybe something happened on that wednesday night, she must of called her mother and got told off hard, she started to behave strange on thursday morning when I called from memory, I hang up I recalled because she sounded very pissed off. Then afternoon , then friday .........................

Fuk, why am I doing this detective shit, just cant accept all the promises about our love were fake, I doubt that she was like that. So many ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Forget everything

Maybe I am still not fully healed yet, still dream about her from time to time, I know its sad, she said to me to find my own way and get a life, She said I ruined her life and she doesnt like/love me anymore.

Well I still wonder whether it was because of personality clash or other reasons, it digs my head in, she should of let me know...

Been reading a few articles about star signs and shit. lOl ... still thinking if we match or not and surprisingly it was really accurate. I know it is pointless by now, just for fun.

.....

What should I say....

All I wanted was just to have a talk and tell her my apologies. Didnt expect everyone to run away, sounds like a drama. From 12 to 10 pm, I stood outside without anything, I think if I really did something horrible, it was good enough how I punished myself like that, being called basiclly anything. Running away made me look very bad as well, after all that. If it was really because of my mistakes that caused it, I think I dont have anymore guilt.

But I think I really deserve a reason for such a result. Just to respect me as a normal human being.

Its all over now, just very surprised how things can change so dramatically and quickly, seems like everything is just a dream.

May

May now, life goes on !!! This year is definitely a pivotal point in my life, my project is on schedule which makes me really happy, it can be hard at times, stay in focus is really difficult especially when you have to stay in tune all the way through. I sometimes question myself whether this effort is worthwhile, but I guess you need to give it a try first, luckily all the things that I fought for or a goal tried reach had all become reality. So maybe this doubt is pointless. All I should do is just to fight harder, perhaps there is something waiting for me again. Keep it up with my project while dad is away. Finish all the modeling by end of June, start on my Thesis while she goes to America. Use my time efficiently and wisely!

Wishes....

Do I have any wishes .... hm yea quite a few ...... Become the richest man .. haha
That's my ultimate goal. Now stop being naive and start narrowing down things that I can achieve. Well, make sure my portfolio is at a level that can get me a Revit Architect job or maybe even a technician. 2. Make sure my visualisation is good enough to earn me a contract renderer role . set up the great web site founded by David titled BIMATELIER.COM what a beautiful name. Absolutely stunning!!!


Well, furhter more, wish everyone well. She is very down today, I feel like I am a bit too much or sort of annoying. She deserves to have sometime for herself, TRUE
!

Funny how I used to think people probably needs help when they feel down or not well, but some people just want peace ... PEACE .... TRANQUILITY .....

Ah... this girl has got a personality ...

David ya....

Just thought of something, her mum and Tanaka san has left me some memories. Great wisdom from them, her mum has got a really good personality. She seems very easy going and well presented, I am sure she has been through a lot in her life, I can see she is a very tough individual deep inside. I like analysing people at times lol .. Maybe I can gain some insights or learn something from them. I was surprised how frank she was when she shared some thoughts. She mentioned the importance of possessing money. In my heart I totally agree with her. Unlike some of the hypocrite elders, she was very genuine I like this shit. I am quite straight sometimes as well.


Tanaka san is a interesting elder as well, I have a lot of respect for this old Japanese guy, indeed he is very Japanese. For one point I thought he behaves like a Chinese guy, likes to show off his possession. Once again, I enjoy people being real.
I can see his fear towards the rise of China, he is right, things he had shown me is no way near the things I v seen in China. I still remember uncle Yang's mansion in the middle of the lake and how me and dad traveled with the group to Guangzhou for that conference. Its right, sometimes you cant even picture China like that LOL. Dad is going to USA with this 30 people group in July again, funny how every member in this club is worth at least 10 mil (except Dad). I dont blame Dad not able to succeed, fucking at least he tried. I felt quite awkward when I am with them, but my ambition comes from this fucking awkwardness.

Talk about myself, I am a rebel in my heart, I never fear or backed down what so ever. Born in Harbin, grew up with my idol who is my lovely grandpa. More than half of my ideology comes from this guy. I was educated by him- a true rebellion, yea a Communist.

Hey, by now I come to a conclusion that it is just a believe in life. At least he had a soul, I tried to be like him at times, I always tried to find some sort of value in life!! always been searching and will not stop as well...
People may say why do you have so much irrelevant thoughts, that's why I am very different. Hey, yea I need money, there is no doubt about that, but in my heart I despise money sometimes, there are times I dont really give a shit about money. Sarcastically all the greatest leaders are not rich people at all, but they dont lack in intelligence and power, I think it is quite romantic sometimes, character such as Che, gave up his middle class life and searching for way to free people. Although I would not want to be like him, I would learn from his spirit. Vladimir Putin's wage is probably equivalent to a farmer in the US. So ?? fuck it, he is real character, I like him!

Off topic, indeed there is no topic, this is a fucking diary. What was I saying ? ...
Yea, Money can miss judge your decision at times, it can restrict you as well. That s no the point.

I have so many sides ................................

Hm... Dun wana write anymore ....

4月

了解他人，了解自己，别心太急了。突然间不太想睡了。

。。。 把自己保护好咯，活的才能长啊！哈哈哈

游

从前那些匆匆过往的欢乐岁月
象是梦的季节日和夜
把我带向遥远久别的一切
时光断裂
换得这无奈的距离与爱的熄灭
能换回什么
留住幻梦留下美丽
回忆开动倒计列车
陪你度过寂寞
陪你从山路再次经过
就让阴暗被阳光照射并吞没
化解所有的所有
年少的不快乐
想象着
让人砰砰心跳头晕脑发热
带着喜悦几度兴奋
相约上路在清晨

怎么了

- 其实没什么大问题， 不过那是为什么呢？ 那是为什么呢？ 嗯 。。。。





我有的时候还真的挺讨人厌的。。。 嗯





我为什么总会让人难过呢~~。。。。。。。。 应该总结一下。





在一起还是需要磨合呀！！！！！！！





磨合~！





忍耐~！





磨合 ~！！！！！！！





发张照片 呵呵 她说我们不合适。。。。

磨合吧 ！！

别放弃！！！

暮春秋色

多开阔 幻生凋落
曙分 云舞
冬穿梭晚来经过
手挥 捕捉
起风了 骤雨下天
暮春 秋色
一清池 桂花妩媚
万丘壑 锦缎绫罗
或多 已消落
光阴归来 天空把
染尘埃 一并敛埋

了解自己很难

人真的是一种极其复杂的动物，我们有七情六欲，不同的性格，对事物不同的态度合理解。 那我对我自己还了解多少呢。。

我希望能克服自己的缺点！！！ 更加积极的面对人生！！！

HD 1108

HERE IS A GIFT FROM GOD, IM PROUD TO BE HER MAN!

My parents

- My parents !! good looking aye!! I am very proud of them, they are proud of me as well. lalalalala

On Track

Havnt update for a long time coz I'v been busy!!

Here just some highlights of my lovely life in the past 2 monthes.





- My birthday dinner at Bondi.






- Followed by a super duper surprise present from my beautiful friends.






- Especially these two, omg cant believe its been almost a decade with these guys!!!!!!!










- Ofcoz these two!!



- AND Ofcoz these two!!!

Basically they all very important to me and others as well!!!!!